My thoughts on the death of a Star.

Today Prince died. Those 3 words just don't even make sense to me. They probably don't make sense to anyone who was a fan of his or to anyone who had an appreciation for his music, for the man. I myself have been a fan of his music since I was a little kid. The radio was always on around our house as I was growing up and when a Prince song came on...the radio got turned up full blast. 

As I got older Prince was a common theme. I remember looking at MAD magazine when they would parody Purple Rain and I wanted so badly to see it (although I wasn't allowed to). I remember going to a religious revival at the local High School when I was a kid, not because I was interested in becoming religious, but because I had heard that Prince's ex-bodyguard, Big Chick, was going to be there because he was "born again". I just wanted to hear all about Prince! I remember finally getting to watch Purple Rain at my friend, Monica's house when I was like 14, even though it had been out for like 10 years. For my high school Junior Prom, our theme was "Let's Go Crazy" even though that song had come out in the early 80's! It didn't matter....it was voted as the song for our Prom in 1995! When I worked in the music Department at Barnes & Noble, Prince was often a topic of conversation with me and my friend, Ken, who was a huge fan as well We'd talk for hours about his music (some amazing, some totally awful), his life and how he influenced us. My best friend Becky and I used to listen to the Purple Rain soundtrack all the time and watch the movie, quoting it throughout the years. Let's have some asses wiggling...I want some perfection!! 

The point of this timeline is that through all the fun times of my life, Prince seemed to show up in one form or another. Some of my musical choices have come and gone, but he has always remained a constant. I've seen him go from a kid playing in the clubs of Minneapolis, to a big time performer, to a symbol formerly known as Prince and back to his name again. He's put out amazing dance tracks that are timeless and still will make that ass wiggle to this day. But, he's also put out beautiful, emotional work we can all relate to and some that is so off the charts out there and weird that it has left even the most devoted fan saying "What the hell??" Through it all Prince did one thing that is so very hard to do in his industry...He stayed completely true to himself. If he felt he was slipping...he put up that middle finger to the industry and changed his name, dropped his "slave" label, changed his look, changed his music, fought for his artistic freedom and never, ever allowed someone to dictate who he was and what his art was supposed to look like. 

I love Prince for that. He was truly a unique and creative genius. He didn't win American Idol or The Voice. He worked very very hard to make a name for himself the old fashioned way. He knew he had something to offer the world and he did just that on his terms. No one could dull his shine, no one could wipe that coy smirk off his face. He could sweep you off your feet, or kick you in the gutter depending on his mood. Prince was as real as they get. He was larger than life in musical talent. He was music, sex, art, freedom, expression, swagger and vulnerability all rolled into his petite little package. I am really sad that the world has lost him today. That I lost him today. To some generations he is just a Dave Chapelle joke, but to many others he was an innovator, raw amazing talent and the brightest star in the galaxy. Shine on where ever you are now, Prince. I will keep the music playing for the rest of my years. You can bet on that! 

Our First Home!

Darren and I embarked on a journey of buying and renovating our very first home on 8/8/14. Since then, we have put blood sweat and tears into it. It's been a labor of love and I wanted to share, with those who read my blog, the progress that we've made in a little over a year. Can't wait to see what year #2 brings!

Baby Mine??

So, I was watching Katie Couric today and the topic was something I am very familiar with. It was about couples who have chosen to remain childless. This has been a subject my husband and I have discussed many times, but still haven't come to a definite and final decision on the matter. As I was watching the couples talk about why they chose not to expand their little families, I found myself nodding in agreement  and yet feeling overwhelmed with emotion that I was agreeing. It's such a confusing position to be in that sometimes feels like a roller coaster.

Darren and I are good people, we have a solid and loving relationship and have a lot of love to go around. So, being a parent make so much sense in my heart and in my daydreams. I envision us snuggled up on the couch with our newborn, gazing lovingly at our new addition and talking about his or her future. I envision us sharing the responsibility of late night diaper changes and feedings. I get excited when I think of every last exhausted, crazed, life changing moment that will surely come with a child. And it doesn't scare me. I know it will be hard work, I know it won't always be cute and sweet. I feel ready to deal with whatever comes when it involves my responsibility as a parent. and then I think "Yes! I want to be a mom. Let's do this!!"

This past summer, Darren and I had a moment where we just let happen what happens when you decide to make a baby. There was no hesitation, no worry, we just went for it. I felt different right away and in the weeks that followed was convinced that I was pregnant. My body didn't help matters as it was not performing as it always had. My period was 10 days late, I took  multiple pregnancy tests (all negative), I trolled pregnancy sites looking for something to tell me that I was pregnant and finally I called my Gyne in a panic wanting to know if I should come in for a blood test. In that time, I started to really look at the reality of our life and how hard it would be to raise a kid. Then...the "what If's" started. What if we can't find anyone willing to help us out with watching our kid? My mother is unreliable, my dad just isn't patient or nurturing enough, my in-laws are wonderful, but they can't be the only ones responsible for helping us care for our kid. We can't be stay at home parents. We have to work. What if regular daycare is way too expensive (as I have heard many times that it is) and what if the cheaper daycare is not fit for my kid? What If one of us loses our job? How can we afford another person in our household? What if the baby is born sick? How can we afford medical bills? Is my lovely daydream of being a parent going to go up in smoke all because of MONEY?? How sad is that? We can't do this. The money and support just isn't there. What are we going to do now? AHHHHH! Then...my period came.

I took having a baby off the table after that. I was too freaked out to consider it until We could come up with a better plan and more money. I didn't want to start parenthood feeling completely stressed out and unprepared financially. So, we decided to give it a little more time, planning and consideration. That would seem like a fantastic idea if I wasn't about to turn 36 and my biological clock is tick-tocking away in my head. I feel like I am like Lola in the movie "Run Lola Run" I am racing to save my womb before it's too late. I am not the healthiest of people anyway and  my Gyne has already told me that I need to get going with the baby-making because it could be a very hard and long road as it is.

I can't help but feel a little doomed. Darren and I married late in the game and I just am beginning to feel like it might be too late for us to have a child. The ducks are not merging into neat little rows for us very fast. So, here I sit...hoping for a miracle and trying to count the blessings I already have. Thank God that Darren and I are so connected. As long as I have him, I feel pretty happy. I keep praying for a sign to which way we should go. I just hope there will come an answer soon so I don't keep daydreaming about a baby that will never be here.

Cellphones don't suck, people do!

So yeah..pretty harsh I know. But, still true, in my opinion. My husband and I are 2 of the 9% of adults in this country that don't own a cell phone. Yes, you read that correctly. We do not own a cell phone, we do not text every moment of our lives, we do not talk loudly about our private business while trying to push a shopping cart at the same time (and failing miserably) or put lives in danger by trying to operate our cars and text at the same time. We don't have an app for anything and we don't upload our lives instead of living them.

I know I sound bitter about the use of cell phones and to be honest, I am. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the purpose that cell phones were SUPPOSED to serve. They make communication in general so much easier and come in very handy in case of emergency. I actually owned a cell phone for years. I talked, I texted, the whole nine yards. At first it was great and convenient, but then I started to notice a big change in our society. Inevitably, like most things that serve a purpose in this world, cell phones got overused, abused and relied upon way to heavily. Much like the internet before cell phones, video games before internet, and home phones before video games, etc etc etc. However, cell phones have reached a whole new level of over-use unlike anything I have ever seen in my 35 years of life. Their existence has virtually redefined the social structure of our world and NOT for the good.

Everywhere you look, people are attached to a device as if it's some kind of social life support. People are texting, talking and trolling more than half their day. This would all be fine if it didn't weaken, if not destroy, the human ability to interact with each other in real time. This makes me absolutely sick. Being a person who is sans cell phone, I can see it so much clearer than someone with one. It's like being the only sober person at a party. It's annoying as hell!! No one makes eye contact because they are so used to looking at a screen. No one has patience because they are now used to everything being at their fingertips online. People are growing increasingly more agitated at the simplest things. They are distracted constantly and for the poor people out there (my husband and I included) who are just trying to navigate through life, eyes wide open and paying attention, it becomes a nightmare to be in public anymore! I have to prepare myself every single time I go in public because I know I will be bumped into, shoved out of the way, spoken to rudely or very dismissively and rushed because someone behind me is impatient and can't wait their turn. It's exhausting for an introvert like me who enjoys personal space and polite social interaction. It's all I can do to stop myself from exploding on people who I don't even know simply because I desire some common courtesy.

I feel like I am becoming an old curmudgeon, but the truth is, I am reacting to what's being thrown at me on a daily basis. It sucks to live in a cold, checked out world in real time when everyone is supposedly "plugged in" more...but in what real sense? I ask cell phone owners who are you plugged into?? When's the last time you stopped, put the cell phone away and had a REAL conversation with someone? When's the last time you struck up a conversation with a stranger and made a new friend that way? If you can't go a whole day without picking up your cell phone (unless it's to answer an important call) then you have a serious problem! It's like a brand new addiction and everyone is pretty much fine with being an addict. Our world is just so sad now. I prefer to try my best to be plugged in to real time and that's not easy for me because I am a pisces...born to have my head in the clouds. I just miss the days when strangers would be nicer to each other, neighbors would help one another and people enjoyed face time.

Gonna make this one count...

So, my last post was pretty miserable. But, I am happy to report that my husband and I are back in our love groove (the fight blew over that same day) and life is getting better day by day. I don't know what is coming over me, but lately I have risen up out of my funky depression crap and been feeling so much more positive about life in general. I am finally starting to take charge again and build my confidence.

The thing with my mom went as expected and we are now back to our corners, not speaking to one another once again. I tried to email her and it started out fine. But, as soon as I tried to let her in on what I felt was broken about our relationship, so we could talk about it and move passed it, she made everything about her and in her own lovely words told me I was crazy and needed to seek help. She completely dismissed my feelings (again) and then took her leave of me (again). I didn't attack, I didn't blame. I just tried to talk to her, woman to woman as adults about why I feel our interactions seem to go so horribly wrong and that I had a huge desire to try to fix those things so we could be friends and respect one another. It was a no-go because she refused to hear me. She acts as if I am an ungrateful, selfish, daughter who does not appreciate her love and that no matter what I am to blame for our relationship because I have crazy made-up ideas about her behavior toward me. Yet, I still talk to all the family members who ever were in our lives as I grew up and she talks to only a small, select few who still tolerate her. The rest of us have been banished to "not good enough" land.  But the truth is, I kind of like it there. I know I am good enough for those who have no agenda. So, I will continue to hang out where I am wanted.

As the holidays are approaching, I am trying very hard not to get depressed about the mom situation. I am starting to learn to be away from her and find happiness, however, I still have a ways to go. The holidays will always be the hardest for me. Mostly because the fondest memories I have of my mother were always around this time of year. She never ever seemed mad or hateful at the holidays when we were kids. She always made things special and would throw wonderful parties with our family (before she decided to hate them all). Our home was always full of warmth, love and laughter and it was always my mom who made it that way. I know I owe a huge part of my happiness as a child to her and how much she tried to make our home a magical place to be at the holidays. It's THAT mom that I grieve for. She died a while ago and I have no idea how to help or even be in the same room with the mom I am left with now. She no longer wants to do anything with us. Everything is a struggle and she takes the joy out of every holiday with her constant negativity and weird accusations. It brings me to tears when I think to long about it. I miss my loving, kind mother. She will never be in my life again and I know it. But, I am trying very very hard not to blame myself for it. I have always tried my best with her, but in the end, it has never been enough. I have never been enough for her.

As sad as it is, it's my reality, so I am taking what could be a negative, sad situation and I am trying to go a different direction. This year, I am determined to focus on the joys of my life, the warmth the holidays have to offer and memories that made me so happy as a kid. I am also trying to give to those in need and keep myself busy with family and friends who are in my life instead of focusing on who isn't. Just yesterday, I got a webcam and skyped for the first time with my cousin in Washington (who I spent so many wonderful Christmases with as a kid) and my sister (and brother-in-law) in Wisconsin. It was so much fun to see their faces as we talked and it felt like they were with me. We are planning on skyping throughout the holidays since we won't be able to get together this year.

I've also been resorting to watching old Christmas commercials and specials from the 80's (when I was a kid) to get into the spirit. Believe it or not...it's actually working wonders! It takes me back to such a happy, comforting time in my life and I can almost feel my mom's love again. It makes me remember all the love and fun my family provided me with growing up. Even if we can't all be together now, I am reminded of what once was and maybe will be again someday.

Anyway, I am actually looking forward to Christmas this year. I can't let anyone take away my spirit. I pray often and ask God for guidance. Even though sometimes I don't understand his plan for me, I feel so much better when the path gets a little easier to walk down. I may not like the fact that my mom and I don't talk or that I've lost touch with people who once meant the world to me, but I am still blessed with love from those who are still here.

Is it too late to be something else?

In the last 24 hours, this is the closest I've come to having a panic attack in a very long time. There is no huge crisis going on or crazy life test coming up (I hope), but I have been so fearful and anxious that I can't come down off the ceiling.

I am trying hard to pinpoint what is going on with me. I've come to a couple different conclusions. One, is that I am attempting to get back in touch with my mom after 9 months of not speaking to one another. Another is that I had another argument with my husband last night and it's just getting to a point where I can't stand the frustration that comes with that. It's not that we argue constantly. We actually get along very well. So, when we DO have a fight, it really just sucks. I felt like I was trying to stand up for myself and he gets quiet and upset. I am not winning any popularity contests by speaking up, but damn it...why can't I have feelings when He's being insensitive? I slept on the couch and he left this morning without a word. I just want it to end already and for us to be back in the love bubble...but I guess I'm not worthy of a little humility and an apology. Maybe I'm the only one who thinks I deserve one. That's a pretty lonely feeling.

As far as my mom goes. I am not quite sure if I am ready or not to be on speaking terms with her. I wish I felt more in control of the situation. I want a certain type of relationship with her. One that is kind and friendly. Where we don't take each other so seriously and can just let things go without it ending up in a fight. However, I'm pretty sure that I will never have that with her and again...that sucks. The thought of reconnecting is making me anxious. I can't deal with the same bullshit over and over again. I have no desire to return to pain like that.

Bottom line is that I am an emotional wreck. I have barely any coping skills, I'm depressed and I have no trust. People have pretty much ruined me. But, I do still have hope and that's what is keeping me searching for something better....that and my husband. We might be fighting right this moment, but He is truly a life saver. I don't know what I would do without him. I want to be a better person for not just myself, but for him as well. I need to learn a whole new set of skills to help me become happy and I have no idea where to start. How do you build trust when it seems that nearly every time I have given it away, it gets destroyed? I can pretty much count on one finger the people I fully trust 100% in my life. That's just crazy!! How do I fix it?

I find myself becoming an angry, fearful person more and more. I desire peace and kindness and understanding from the world and what is mostly thrown back at me is selfishness, obliviousness or THEIR problems. I often think of that saying from Ghandi..."Be the change you want to see in the world" and I want so much to be that. I want to fight negativity with this amazing force of positive white light that envelopes everyone I see. But, I lack that super power. I am part of the problem and it feels like waging war with Goliath to be a part of the solution these days. I am defeated, but still clutching my sword of hope in my hand as I lay on the ground.

Sorry for that last dramatic paragraph...but it's how I feel. I don't ever just feel something a little bit. It rages inside me and I explode when it builds to much. I kind of did that last night to my husband. But, I have o idea how to calm down and take a breath. I will continue to seek answers until I can reach a point in my life where everything feels OK. Whatever it takes!

Jello Shot Heaven!!

So, I got this list off Facebook and I LOVE it!!  It's a complete list of Jello shots and the recipes. When Darren and I get a house, I am so throwing a party and serving as many as these as we can afford!! OH YEAH!! Enjoy!

 

 

OK OK OK.. I have been asked several times to post Jello shots. Here it is!
Here is our complete Jello shot list, all in one post, or at least complete up to this point. I haven't come across any more that have made the cut yet, so for now ...

I give you this. A grand total of 70 Jello Shot recipes!!! Complete with the Jager Bomb, Jagermonster & Jagermaster!

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1. *JAGER BOMB* boil 1 cup red bull (in place of water), add black cherry or orange jello, 1 cups jager.

2. *MARGARITA* boil 1 cup water, add 3 oz pkg lime jello, 4 oz tequila, 4 oz sweet & sour margarita mix. sprinkle with salt just before firm.
(substitue watermelon jello for lime for a melon margarita)

3. *RUM & COKE boil 1 cups coke, mix in dark cherry jello add 1 cups light rum

4. *MIMOSAS* this one varies from the normal method Since champagne isn't as strong as liquor, cut the water out of this one. boil one cup champagne, mix orange jello 2 min, add one more cup champagne and a splash of OJ.

5. *SILK* Boil one cup champagne, mix in jello for 2 minutes, add one cup champagne and splash of lychee juice from the can.

6. *ORANGE TIC TAC* Boil two cups red bull, mix jello two minutes, add two cups mandarin orange vodka

7. *LEMON DROP* (boil 1 cup water, add lemon jello, citrus vodka, top with sugar sprinkles just before its fully set up)

8. *GRAPE CRUSH* (boil 1 cups water, add grape jello, 1/2 cup plain vodka, 1/2 cup chambord)

9. *HAWAIIAN* (boil 1 cup water, add pineapple or blueberry jello, 1 cup coconut rum)

10. *GIN & TONIC* (boil 1 cup tonic water, add lime jello, 1 cup gin)

11. *LEMON LIME* (boil 2 cups sprite, add lemon and lime jellos, 2 cups citrus vodka)

12. *BLUEBERRY* (boil 1 cup water, add blueberry jello, 1 cup blueberry vodka)

13. *FRUIT PUNCH* (boil 1 cups water, add mixed fruit jello, 1/2 cup blueberry vodka, 1/2 cup raspberry vodka)

14. *WATERMELON* (boil 1 cup water, add watermelon jello,1 cup watermelon vodka)

15. *BEER* (boil 1 cups water, add strawberry jello, add 1 cup any malt liquor)

16. *CARIBBEAN* (boil 1 cup water, add strawberry-banana jello, Cruzan banana rum

17. *CHERRY COLA* (boil 1 cup coke, add cherry jello, 1 cup cold cola, 1/2 cup amaretto, 1/2 cup spiced rum)

18. *DREAMSICLE* (boil 1 1/3 cup water & 2/3 cup OJ, add orange jello, 1 cup vanilla vodka 1/2 cup raspberry or berry vodka, 1/2 cup KeKe Beach Key Lime Cream Liqueur)

19. *LIME IN THE COCONUT* (boil 1 cup water, add watermelon jello, 1 cup Malibu Coconut Rum)

20. *RED HOTS* (boil 2 cups water, add jello, 1/2 cup cold water, 2 cups Cinnamon Schnapps)

21. **SEX ON THE BEACH** boil 1 cup cranberry juice, add 3 oz pkg orange jello, 3 oz peach schnapps, 5 oz vodka

22. ***SOUR APPLE*** (in microwavable container, mix 1 small box sour apple jello, 1 pkg knox gelatin and 1 tbs sugar. Stir in 1 cup Mt. Dew and mix well. Microwave on high for 1 min. Stir until powder is dissolved. Mix 2 cups vodka & 3/4 cup Captain Morgan Coconut Rum. mix well and let sit 1 min. pour into cups and refrigerate.)

23. *SQUIRM* (boil 2 1/4 cup water, add 3 small pkgs any flavor jello, 2 cups vodka, 3/4 cup ice cold water. add 1 gummy worm to each shot before firm.

24. *CARIBOU LOU* (1/2 cup boiling water 1/2 cup pineapple juice boiled, add pineapple jello, 1/2 cup Malibu Rum, 1/2 cup Triplesec)

25. *JOLLY RANCHER* (boil 1 cup water, add melon jello, 1/2 cup vodka, 1/2 cup apple pucker)

26. *PURPLE PEOPLE EATER* (boil 1 cup water, add grape jello, 1/2 cup vodka, 1/2 cup watermelon pucker)

27. *BAHAMA MAMA* (boil 1 cup water, add watermelon jello, 1/2 cup Malibu rum, 1/2 cup peach schnapps)

28. *COSMOPOLITAN* (boil 1 cup water with a splash of lime juice, add cranberry jello, 1/2 cup vodka, 1/2 cup triple sec)

29. *CHERRY BOMB* (boil 1 cup redbull, add cherry jello, 1 cup vodka and drop in one maraschino cherry, step up before firmed.)

30. *BLUE FIRECRACKER* (boil 1 cup water, add berry blue jello, 1/2 cup vodka, 1/2 cup peach schnapps)

31. *WHITE LIGHTNING* (boil 1 cup water, add pina colada jello, 1/2 cup vodka, 1/2 cup triple sec)

32. *FUZZY NAVEL* (boil 1 cup water, add 3 oz orange jello, 2 oz vodka, 6 oz peach schnapps

33. *RED HEADED SLUT* boil 1 cup water, add cranberry jello, 1/2 cup peach schnapps, 1/2 cup jager

34. *MOJITO* (1 cup boiling water, 3 oz box lime jello, 6 oz white rum, 2 oz cold water. top with mint leaves chopped and crushed. (or substitue mint leaves with a splash of mint extract in the the boiling water.)

35. *STRAWBERRY DAQUIRI* (boil 1 cup water, add 3 oz package wild strawberry jello, 6 oz white rum, 1 oz sweet & sour or margarita mix.

36. *DEVILS KISS* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 envelope of Knox Gelatin and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water, 1/2 cup of Goldschlager, and 1/4 cup of Bacardi-151. Stir well and wait until the liquid has cooled before pouring into jello shot cups. if you double up the Knox Gelatin in this one you can eliminate the cup serve these up as jigglers!!

37. *ANKLE BREAKER* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 envelope of Lime Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of 151 Rum, and 1/4 cup of Cherry Brandy. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

38. *FIRECRACKER 2* 3/4 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Orange Jello and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water, 1/3 cup of Sloe Gin , and 1/3 cup of Spiced Rum and 1/3 cup of 151 Rum. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cup

39. **KOMANIWANALAYA** 2 cups of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Pineapple Jello and 1 box of Cranberry Jello (both 3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1 cup of cold water, 1/2 cup of Amaretto, and 1/2 cup of 151 Rum. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

40. *RAIN MAIN* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Orange Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water, 1/2 cup of Bacardi 151, and 1/4 cup of Melon Liqueur. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups

41. *ADAM AND EVE* 3/4 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Lemon Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Brandy, and 1/4 cup of Pomogranate Liqueur and 1/4 cup of Gin. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

42. *ALABAMA SLAMMER* 3/4 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 package of Lemon Jello (3 oz) and stir until everything is completely dissolved and then add 1/3 cup of coldwater. Next, add 1/3 cup of Amaretto, 1/4 cup of Southern Comfort, and 1/3 cup of Sloe Gin. Mix throuroughly until everything is well combined and the carefully pour into jello shot cups. Chill for 3 to 4 hours and serve.

43. *ALL NIGHTER* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Cherry Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water and 1/2 cup of Watermelon Vodka. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

44. *APPLE PIE* 1 1/2 cups ofboiling water. Dissolve 2 boxes of Lemon Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1 cup of cold water, 1/2 cup of Light Rum, 1/2 cup of Sweet Vermouth, 1/4 cup of Apple Brandy and 1/4 cup ofGrenadine. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

45. *BANANA BOAT* 1 cup of water. Dissolve 1 box of Pineapple Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Coconut Rum , and 1/4 cup of Banana Liqueur. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

46. *BANANA SPLIT 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Strawberry Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Vodka, and 1/4 cup ofBanana Liqueur and 1/4 cup of Creme de Cacao. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

47. *BAT OUT OF HELL* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 package of Orange Jello (3 oz) and stir for at least 2 minutes until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of Red Bull, 1/4 cup of Rumand 1/4 Blue Curacao. Stir until well combined and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

48. *BERMUDA TRIANGLE* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Orange Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Spiced Rum and 1/4 cup of Peach Schnapps. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot

49. *BLACK CAT* 1 cup of boilingwater. Dissolve 1 package of Raspberry Jello (3 oz) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water, 1/2 cup of Black Vodka, and 1/4 cup of Chambord. Stir well and wait until the liquid is about room temperature before pouring into jello shot cups.

50. *BLACK WIDOW* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 package of Grape Jello (3 oz) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water, 3/4 cup of Blackberry Vodka and 1/8 teaspoon of Ginger Powder. Stir well and cool slightly before pouring into jello shot cups. For a schnazzy garnish, drop a singleblackberry in each cup before chilling

51. *COUGH DROP* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 3 oz package of Strawberry Jello and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/2 cup of Jagermeister. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

52. *CRYPTINI* 1 cup of HotCoffee. Dissolve 1 envelope of Knox Gelatin and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/3 cup of Iced Coffee, 1/3 cup of Vodka, and 1/3 cup of Kahlua. Stir well and wait until the liquid has cooled before pouring into jello shot cups.

53. *FRENCH TICKLER* 1 cup of boilingwater. Dissolve 1 package of Orange Jello (3 oz) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Cinnamon Schnappsand 1/2 cup of Vodka. Stir well and wait until the liquid has a chance to cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

54. *HARVEY WALLBANGER* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 package of Orange Jello (3 oz) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water, 1/2 cup of Vodka and 1/4 cup ofGalliano. Stir well until completely combined and wait until the liquid has cooled before pouring into jello shot cups.

55. *JUICY FRUIT* 3/4 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Pineapple Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water, 1/3 cup of Vodka, and 1/3 cup ofMelon Liqueur and 1/3 cup of Peach Schnapps. Stir well and cool

56. *JAGERMASTER* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Orange Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Jagermeister, and 1/4 cup of Amaretto, and a just a splash of Grenadine. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

57. *JAGERMONSTER* 1 cup of boiling water . Dissolve 1 package of Orange Jello and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water , 1/2 cup of Jagermeister, and 1/4 cup of Grenadine. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

58. *LETHAL INJECTION* 2 cups of boiling water. Dissolve 1 package of Orange Jello (3 oz) and 1 package ofPineapple Jello (3 oz) and stir at least 2 minutes until completely dissolved. Add 1 cup of cold water followed by 1/4 cup of Amaretto, 1/4 cup of Coconut Rum, 1/4 cup of Dark Rum and 1/4 cup of Spiced Rum. Stir well and wait until the liquid has cooled before pouring intojello shot cups.

59. *LONG ISLAND ICED TEA* and measure 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 2 packages of Lemon Jello (3 oz) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of Cola and 1/2 cup of cold water. Now get ready to add the alcohol - 1/2 cup of Gin, 1/2 cup of LightRum, 1/2 cup of Vodka and 1/2 cup of Tequila. Stir until everything is well combined and let it cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

60. *NINJA TURTLE* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Orange Jello and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Gin, and 1/4 cup of Blue Curacao. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

61. *PAIN KILLER* 3/4 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Pineapple Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/4 cup of cold water, 1/3 cup of Dark Rum, 1/3 cup ofCoconut Rum and 1/3 cup of Orange Liqueur. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

62. *PIXIE STIX* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Lemon Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Southern Comfort, and 1/4 cup of Blackberry Brandy. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

63. *RED SILK PANTIES* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Cranberry Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Vodka, and 1/4 cup ofPeach Schnapps. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

64. *KINKY MALIBU BARBIE* Boil 1 cup water, add peach jello, 1/2 cup Kinky Liquer, 1/2 cup Malibu Coconut Rum.

65. *KILLER KOOL AID* 1 1/2 cups of boiling water. Dissolve 2 boxes of Cranberry Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 3/4 cup of cold water, 1/2 cup of Vodka, 1/2 cup of Gin, 1/4 cup of Rum, 1/4 cup of Chambord and 1/4 cup of Triple Sec. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

66. *BROKEN HEART* 1 cup of boiling water . Dissolve 1 package of of Orange Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Vodka, and 1/4 cup of Chambord. Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

67. *SCOOBY SNACKS* 1 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 1 box of Pineapple Jello (3 oz size) and stir until fully dissolved. Add 1/2 cup of cold water, 1/4 cup of Melon Liqueur, and 1/4 cup of Coconut Rum . Stir well and cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

68. *TIJUANA TAXI* 2 cup of boiling water. Dissolve 2 packages ofLemon Jello (3 oz size) and stir at least 2 minutes until fully dissolved.Next, add 1 cup of cold water, 1/2 cup of Tequila, 1/4 cup of Blue Caracao and 1/4 cup of Tropical Fruit Schnapps. Stir until completely combined and give it a chance to cool before pouring into jello shot cups.

69. *RUMMY BEARS* 1 cup boiling water, add any random flavor jello and 1 cup berry vodka, 1 gummy bear in the center of each shot.

70. *WOOWOO* 2 cups boiling water, add 3 pkgs grape jello, 3 pkgs cranberry/raspberry jello, 3 pkgs strawberry jello, 3 cups vodka, 3 cups peach schnapps, 1 can grape juice concentrate and 1 can cran-raspberry juice concentrate (both undiluted!)

PLEASE drink responsibly! Tina